Caroline Flack ‘s close friend Dawn O’Porter believes the star is still with her.
Love Island host Caroline tragically took her own life in February at the age of 40, but Dawn says her essence is still around her every day.
The TV presenter, 41, wrote in her new book Life In Pieces that Caroline’s essence is now living in a tree near the Los Angeles home Dawn shares with her husband, Hollywood star Chris O’Dowd.
She penned: “Caroline has been throwing signs at me like fireballs and I’ve been catching them all and clinging on tight.”
The mum-of-two also recalled one morning she woke up to find “total mayhem” outside her home, with broken toys lying discarded.
She had originally blamed the crows.
Dawn wrote: “Then I learned that crows have funerals. Apparently, when one dies, they throw an event. Which is f****d up, because as they continued to draw my eyes to the sky, a plane started writing ‘Be Kind’ and a huge heart, right above my house.
“I could not believe what I was seeing. Caroline’s death had kicked off a social media campaign called #BeKind, then there they were, those words written above my house. And then her sending the crows in so I didn’t miss it. It’s all obvious.”
She added: “I feel her in everything. More than I have any other person I have lost.”
Dawn, who has struggled with anxiety, said that as she wakes up every night, Caroline is the first thing she sees.
It comes after Caroline’s heartbroken mum spoke out about her constant battle to remind her daughter how “fabulous” her life was.
In an emotional interview with ITV Anglia, Christine said: “We tried to talk to her and say you’ve got this fabulous career and you’ve got a nice home. But actually, that doesn’t matter, because that isn’t how they feel. I think when someone is in that place, what we say isn’t being heard.”
Christine said Caroline fought to kept her mental health battle a secret from her fans as she didn’t want to appear “vulnerable” to her fans.
She said: “She was always frightened that the public would find out that she was vulnerable and she had these dark feelings.
“I used to sit with Caroline and watch television, the same as everybody else, and I would say, ‘Oh I don’t like them’.
“And she’d say, ‘Mum, you don’t even know them’. It made me stop and think, no I don’t. We judge people and we don’t know them. We don’t know what they’re going through.”
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